20 June

Scared but Social-media-ising

Scared but Social-media-ising

Social Media. hmmmm.. It’s always been an edgy place, to put myself out there, to ask for something or some help towards things which really matter. Psychologically, I’ve been ‘managing’ this since I can remember, either too scared to say what I want (for the obvious, fear of rejection, humiliation, to be ignored) or just […]

6 August

I Just Don’t Feel Like It

I Just Don’t Feel Like It

I Just Don’t Feel Like It.  Would missing that class be a total abomination of my physique, training, or education?  Would not going out with my friends, making me a bad friend, a recluse, or to never meet my match?..  What happens when I don’t feel like doing what’s on the agenda?   Would missing all those […]

8 July

An acknowledgement to kind people

An acknowledgement to kind people

Kindness.  Nothing less.. When I was about 17 I was starting to get closer to a long time flirting, high school time sweet heart. Within a couple of weeks, I cheated on him with his good friend, in his place.  I was drunk and stupid, had no idea what I wanted out of a relationship.  Since […]

4 January

New Year Same Old BS

New Year Same Old BS

It’s been quite refreshing to see different public figures NOT talking about setting new years resolutions, but perhaps I’ve managed to miss it through my lack of engagement with the mainstream media.. A friend asked me this week what super intention I had set for the coming year (yes we use the ‘intentions’ terminology rather […]

18 October

Want to Secure the Future?

Want to Secure the Future?

I just want to secure the future, To reassure my steady and continuous flow.. Like it’s something I can and want to control, The settling “it’ll be OK” type of information my mind craves to know..   Total contradictory, Unknown trajectory. Trying to be smart, Abstract of heart.   Magic occurring where the discomforts arise; Learning […]

12 July

It’s All About Me

It’s All About Me

Clearly, there are some people who don’t need to practice being selfish.  Already perhaps enough of It’s All About Me..  I thought I was selfish but I was just scared, I held on tightly to things because being with myself felt impossible to me.  Always wanting to share and be open and generous, but not having lucid enough boundaries, I’d […]

5 April

Flow Forwards..

Flow Forwards..

If water doesn’t flow it stagnates.  You can’t drink stagnant water, it becomes toxic.  Just like water, if we stand still we’ll stagnate.  Some of the hardest lessons can be to let go of the familiar. Letting go of stable jobs, ideals for how you saw yourself living, people, places, things..  By holding on to […]

30 November

How do you know if your shaman is legit?

How do you know if your shaman is legit?

This is of prime importance.  If you decide to drink traditional medicine, it is essential to have the right administration.  This needs the right person (with the right lineage), at the right place, and with the right intention. To get the most out of it, and to keep safe, you want this to be a conscious journey from preparation on-wards. […]

5 November
14 September

Ayahuasca Adventure

Ayahuasca Adventure

So finally I’ve booked it.  My trip to the Amazonian rain forest in Peru for this ayahuasca adventure.  4 weeks, just me, myself and I; set with the intention to unwind, deprogram and realign to who I say I choose to be.  Thanking and leaving the past now not useful parts behind me.. Over the […]